I did the usual, "What do I want to write about tonight...hmmmm...?" and then decided to give up and give in to the personal rant in my head. I might as well get it out so I can clear my mind. I just had such an interesting experience today, that it's still bouncing around in there.
Have you ever had someone tell you, "I know you're right and the other person is wrong, but since they are upset, you just need to agree to make them feel better." That's a summary of a super awesome 30 minutes of my life that I won't get back from today.
Here's the thing - I almost said, "Ok." Then something happened...and I have a pretty good hunch what it was. It's this damn blog. I told you in my very first post that the freedom of speech afforded to me by writing on the world wide web could go to my head and things could get crazy. "No, it'll be great!" they said. "Start a blog!" they said.
NOT that I was inclined to hide my feelings before I started the blog, but I have lost juuuuust a little bit more of my ability to remember that there is no backspace when you're talking out loud to an actual person. Oh, yeah. Whoops.
So I did not say, "Ok." Instead I expressed my condolences that the person was "highly upset" with me, but that I felt it fair to share that I myself was "highly upset" at being expected to fold over and accept blame for something that I hadn't done. Furthermore, I cited a dozen AWESOME things that I had done for this person without anyone noticing THOSE things - so if we were going to say that I had screwed something up - when I DIDN'T - then let's make sure we paint the whole picture. I get no pleasure out of anyone else being upset, but MAN, am I sick of there being no consideration given to the fact that I have feelings too.
Should I have just said, "Ok?" Maybe....but sometimes you have to remind people (and yourself) that being easygoing and laid-back is not the same thing as being a doormat. Just because I can get along with anyone doesn't mean that I won't push back.
♥M
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